Phyrerie thoughts~

The move.

2011-10-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

At 1st, I created my blogger with my livemail account. But then I was required to create a gmail account for an org. But then sync it with my livemail account thus now I can't change my gmail account name and if I delete all my old posts would have been burned. So, I decided to create another gmail account "Jasonphyreblog@gmail.com" with the blog site name as "jasonphyre-ii.blogspot.com". so... If you guys wanna check out my new blog. Just click. See you guys and stay awesome ;)

Where is my Spirit?

2011-06-14T15:44:00.002+08:00

Now, as you all know that every organism in this world ages, grows, evolves and changes. But what is the purpose of this? Why don't trees just pop out of no where and be 10 foot tall? Why don't cows give milk the second they are born? God created all of us in such a way that it takes time for us to grow and manifest into the purpose that we are. So today I'm going to share with you about what I think is life and how we are connected to the Universe.

In theory and discovery. The researchers and experts say that we are all created from a giant explosion known as the Big Bang at the very beginning of time. In Theology, for most religions we are made from a God that existed at the beginning of time. So how are we connected to the Universe and what is our purpose on this planet called Earth? These questions are still debated among all the experts today so don't expect to find an answer to those questions in this blog. But here is something that I would suggest based on what I believe.

I believe that God resides inside you. That the whole purpose of your existence is to become fully who you are. God created you with a purpose and the answer to that purpose lies inside your Spirit. As a human being we have 2 very important fundamental needs in fulfillment of our Spirit. Lets see if you agree with me on this.
1) Growth

Now, what is growth? Is it physical growth? Mental growth? Growth in intellect? Growth in Spirit? or just growing old? Well, its all of those combined. When you did your exercise, when you took on that dieting plan, when you read that awesome book or went to a certain seminar, when you learned a new skill or when you achieve a goal in your life. Do you feel that feeling of fulfillment. Its like a refreshing beverage in the middle of the desert. You feel very satisfied. These are the things that are going to satisfy you not only today but for the rest of your life. A long term satisfaction in contrast to a short term satisfaction like a burger or a glass of wine. These things fulfills your Spiritual need.

2) Contribution

Remember when you helped that person in need? When you lend a hand to carry something? When you donated that $1 for charity? You do don't you? Cuz you felt great. You felt wonderful when you could be of assistance to others. When you can lend a hand and bless someone in their life. Thats the feeling of giving. The feeling of being able to contribute to something good in this world. A feeling of satisfaction.
I remember I had a friend. He was filled with much hatred towards his family, classmates and teachers. His only hobby is playing violent games while listening to heavy metal music. He did not like to socialize with people but have taken me as a friend because I was the only person who understood him. One day I tricked him out for a walk. We had to walk in the blistering heat for miles and he was quite upset about it. But I did it because exercise is good and that it would give me time to have a good long chat with him. As we walked back home. We came across 2 blind men who needed help to get across a busy street. I felt an urgency to help them but my friend was not enthusiastic about it. But since we were going to cross the street anyways, he had to come along. As we approached the blind men, 1 help me by the shoulder and 1 held him by the shoulder. We walked across safely and the blind men thank us. I saw my friend lit up with a smile so I asked him how it felt. He said it felt great. From that point on, I saw that he started to change as a person. He became more sociable, more open to new ideas and became a better person. I myself felt a deep satisfaction in playing the part. So when you contribute to the better of the world or when you create something, you feel that satisfaction.

So, is God living in you? Is your life the Spirit of God? Do you see the connection of what God desires for you and the needs of your Spirit? God encourage us to love our neighbors and keep on giving. God encourages us to stay away from things that will harm us and embrace in things that will raise us. God calls it Sin. Sin from the root of the language does not mean 'to do evil'. It actually means 'to miss the mark'. To sin doesn't mean you are evil. It just means you miss the mark.

So, what is your purpose here on Earth? Pray to God and listen to that inner voice. God lives inside everyone of us. The purpose of your life is determined by you and the choices you make. So take your time and connect to the Universe, connect with God, connect with yourself. Live awesome everyday and happy growing!

Flipflops of my life... Life is amazing

2011-04-19T05:18:00.002+08:00

There are just some things in life that we experience so very rarely and that is what makes it so special. Today I wanna write about the inspiration, the fun, the excitement, the joy and the impact in my life this past weekend and the Flipflops Beach Carnival. (15th, 16th, 17th April 2011)

So yea, it was awesome. The activities include water sports like kayaking, storm rider, banana boat and jet skis. On land there was water attack, beach volley ball, beach soccer, kites, sand buggies and more. Up in the air there was the hot air balloon~ So yea, tons of activities~ The 2 major activities were the Della Ding Dang concert on the 15th night and the Rave Party on the 16th night. It was superb awesome~ I only went for the Rave Party tho, cuz I wasn't really much of a Ding Dang fan =P well anyways, it was fun~

So on the 1st day on the 15th of April I went at noon with my bro and 3 of our friends for some fun filled beach games~ Got there around 3pm and yea, had fun til 7 and got back. There me and my bro took some picts and vids and I met up with people I know like Annie Choo(friend), Tau Xing(distant friend), Jason Chew(Boss who organized Flipflops), Kira Yuwei(Guy in charge), Andre Lim(Monster Tongue DJ), Vincent(guy in charge), Penny Goh(My.Fm cruiser), Wilson(My.Fm cruiser), Ah Ming(son of a political figure volunteering there cuz I asked him to XD) and more.... I know alotta these kind of people cuz I move around alot and.... yea.... moving on~ So I got home around 8 that night, had alotta fun and here are some picts of that day =] (picts coming soon)

So on to the 2nd day~ The 2nd day I had to rush over to fetch my sweetheart Su Ling from work then fetch Nealdy aka Nick and 3 unknown friends from the Spring. At the same time we bought snacks and stuff =] So we met up, shopped and got in the car ready to go. I forgot to take picts of them sitting in the backseat, all 4 of them... I remember telling Ajmal to spread his legs XD sounds so wrong~ So its the 1st time I've met Ajmal, Dilesh and Trevor. Really fun guys. So... more about them later on in my post XD Now I wanna move on to Damai asap! So we reached Damai Puri and as excited as lil kids thrown in to a ball pool or gamblers in a casino or the elderly in a bingo game XD we were bouncing around with enthusiasm and joy~ So we got there, unload our stuff and went over to our room~ 3267~ So our room looks alil bit like this~

Thats me and my sweetheart Su Ling on the bed~ XD Sound so wrong lo. Anyways, yea. Thats a lil bit of the room for ya... Now moving on to activities~ So on that day after check in, the guys went out to the beach while me and Su Ling aka Scarlet spent some time dating or what you might wanna call it. We had some together time strolling on the beach and just having a good time. Then we went over to the restaurant Elements to have a buffet dinner included in the room we got. (picts coming soon)

So yea, after eating eating eating we went back to the room, get changed and went for the Flipflops Rave Party! woots! When we got there at 9pm it rained like it has never rained before XD but me and Scarlet was UNSTOPPABLE and ran in front of the stage and PARTY! haha, thats my sweetheart ;) So heres a pict of the Rave Party(more picts coming soon) and vids.

Truly an awesome time we had, them guys. They had alotta fun too. Especially those who wore shoes to the Rave Party. They are going back with a pair of mighty muddy shoes XD I duno why but I predicted that I would have lost a sandal by the time I get back from the Rave Party and it seems like I can see the future cuz my sandal, one of them actually snapped and left with one XD LOL! Well, at least they aren't as bad as Ajmal's XD Take a look~ before and after~

See the difference? XD

So yeah, muddy and wet and cold. Me and my love went back early cuz of stomach discomforts. Meaning we over ate before we had fun XD so... yea. Then we slept 1st while the guys went out to have more fun. The Rave Party ended at 3am and the guys went over the beach area to lay on the rests to rest and wait for the sunrise. Here are some picts from then

Its really nice and romantic. These guys sure know they're stuff well~ oh and I forgot to add in picts of them from the Rave Party. Later la.

So on the 3rd day. Woke up sorta tired but nice at 7am. Got ready and went for breakfast buffet with my love. Sorry to the guys who had to go over to camp permai to makan. =P so yea. Me and my love went Kayaking after the breakfast around 10 and kayaked til 11. Got back to room and get ready to check out. After that we head over to the swimming pool to swim and we had alotta fun.

So... yea... After that we went to Buntal as suggested by my sweetheart to have dinner together. We wanted them to get the Swak Seafood experience that we both loved so yea... Over to Buntal for seafood! Got there, ordered and waited while sharing about culture and when the 1st dish arrived it was the Belacan Kankong. I explained to them that Belacan was rotten fish and shrimps and they grew weary of it. But when they tried, they loved it. Especially Trevor who just can't stop it with the "oh this is fantastic" sentences XD. Then came the thick corn soup with crab meat. Followed by Butter Prawn, we all loved that~ Then there is the Oyster Omelet/Pizza. Nice and crispy, we all loved that too and finally a while Red Snapper fried and covered with sweet and sour sauce~ It started to rain suddenly so we moved inside. There we ordered 2 more dishes which are the Lala Clams and Deep Fried Squid~ Here are some picts from there~

Gosh, gotta love them dishes~ So yea, total damage, RM196.40 only~ Not a bad deal considering the super freshness of the food, the view and the experience that comes with it. Somethings are just priceless =]

So~ Now we have completed our weekend trip to Flipflops, I left out some details I hope you forgive me for that and please do come check out picts from our FB profiles if you like. =] Now I wanna intro some new friends~

Dilesh aka Dil Tank

Well, from his picts and the times I've spent with him, this guy is cool, fun and funny XD He looks stoned in the last pict so... yea, he is a party guy~ Tough body, good figure and a MJ hat to stand out so yea. So he is from Kenya... yea... I duno what else to say after that XD Really awesome to have met him~

Trevor aka Hitam Manis

Trevor... Hmm... What can I say? He is a really nice guy... and... he can fly(according to the 3rd picture) and he gets sun burns(thats what he said) XD So Trev is a really awesome guy, he is down to earth, funny, good looking and also has a tough body.(I'm so jealous) XD Well, yea... Hitam Manis~ I gave him that one XD He is from Uganda by the way =]

Ajmal aka A.J

Hmm... Ajmal is a quiet guy, usually takes picts of the guys and really isn't much talkative so... I tend to mess around with him at times XD the 1st pun intended sentence was "I think Ajmal needs to spread his legs" XD and that was in the car after knowing each other for about... how many minutes? XD I duno... anyways. Don't let his looks fool you... Under that black shirt that he seems to wear for a complete 2 days without changing which really begs the question how come hides maybe... a monstrous... tough.... amazing... 6 PACK! But I duno, thats a maybe for me XD Awesome to have known this guy~ oh yea, he is from Mauritius~ Sounds so nice lo!

Nealdy aka Nick aka TNT aka Needy aka Nerdy XD

Sorry about the intro line XD haha, just wanted to mess with ya~ Anyways, this is Nealdy, he is not a new friend cuz I've known him since PLKN National Service Camp Since Jan 2010~ heres some picts~

yea~ those were the times~ anyways, He is an awesome guy~ we kept in touch since then so... yea... its awesome =] Hmm.... can't stop thinking about his 'Bubu' tho XD

Now I wanna add another special someone of mine in~ =]

Scarlet Su Ling

This is my sweetheart, girlfriend, best friend and lover. In my blog I mentioned her once or twice when I had a crush on her last year but she rejected me then. I duno how or why but we got together this year so... I'm happy =] I liked her then but I love her now. Its awesome to know she loves me as much as I love her~ Special thanks to her =]

Well, thats about all I wanna post about the Flipflops beach carnival but before it all ends, enjoy some picts =]

Beer or Red Bull?

Wanna emphasise on the epicness of this pict

This one also, looks so epic!

We were 'framed' in this picture

Us wanting to punch Nick(mid) from left- Trev, Dil, Nick, A.J, Me and Scarlet

and here we are again~ good pose~

Guys in the pool, I just can't get how Dil manages to swim with specs on =P

The guy with hands up, I'm guessin its Trev... but its just a guess... What do you think?

100+ kites all at 1 go!

Twin uppercut!

Hi! We are not gay! =D OMG we look like twins!

Hill or Mountain? I'll let you guys decide =P

The Flipflop 4! Excludin me and Scarlet cuz were a pair of Flipflops~

So I hope you enjoyed this post, I took 4 hours to write it but I'll have a lifetime for it to remind me of the awesome time, place, experience and people that I've encountered. These are gonna be left in my life like footprints in the sand...

Thank you

We are the Magnets in this Universe.

2011-03-14T15:35:00.003+08:00

What are we in this Universe and what are our capabilities? We are actually unlimited beings, the Children of a Creator God and the Center of the Universe. But what does all this mean to us? Well, for todays topic, I would be sharing on US being a UNIVERSAL MAGNET that can ATTRACT all that the we DESIRE into our lives.

First and foremost to obtain the ability to attract all that you want into your life, you need to go thru these few steps.

1)Mild Awareness

-This is where you are aware that you are a part of this universe and that you can ask and desire for what you want and deserve it for your life. In a religious point of view, we are the worshippers(magnet) and we pray(ask) for what we desire(prayer) to our God(Universe) and understand that we are deserving to have our prayers answered.

2)Clear Intentions

-Having clear intentions will be the text message you send to the Universe. You must be sure and specific with what you want to manifest into your life. Be sure that what you want is a contribution to this Universe then it will manifest even faster.

3)Positive Mindset

-There is nothing more powerful than being Happy Go Lucky. So you realise the happy get happier, the sad get sadder, the rich get richer and the poor gets poorer? Its a fact that the message you send the the Universe contains your Vibrations(Feelings). There are only 2 Vibes, Good and Bad. When you are sending a Negative Vibe(Bad), you will also get Negative results. That is what the Universe does, the more misery you send the more misery the Universe will reply. Makes sense? Now if you want Positive things to manifest in your life then you should be Positive all the time and send out Positive Vibes(Good)

4)Rituals

-These rituals refer to habits. Being able to make and keep good habits or rituals is very important to manifest your desires. Like those that pray in time according to habit will be clear with what they want and will have their prayers answered quickly. Its important to be able to keep your thoughts clear and positive.

5)Thank you

-It is so very very very very very important to be thankful and grateful once good things do happen. If you can keep your gratitude up, bigger and better things will happen for you all the time!

So now you have read and understand a few very basic steps, all you have to do now is practice~ All the best ya~ Any question just reach out to me at my Facebook~ JasonPui Phyre Rocketeer.

Possessed by Music!!

2011-01-20T11:00:00.000+08:00

There is no other sensation that can compete when you get possessed by music! Damn I love this feeling. Some times I think is way better than orgasm!! Cuz orgasm like, last for a few seconds only XDD. I love the way it feels to loose all the sound of the world and just sink and float and burn and break to so many different songs that could mean nothing but says anything and everything that can't be said by people alone. Damn it! I'm happy, sad, broken, complete and and and.... I miss her!!!

Ever changing~

2011-01-07T09:11:00.002+08:00

Hello readers~ I just want to share with you all today that we are ever changing. Even if we don't feel like it. Time would just keep changing you by the second. Your cells would change, your mind would change, your heart would change and and and.... you get the point. What ever it is that changes, be it for the good or for the bad. Will be the stepping stones to your future. SO! Happy growing! Thats all~ XD

Did I made a mistake in the relationship or is she the wrong person?

2011-01-02T12:41:00.004+08:00

To be honest with all of you... I don't like to be in the position I'm in and I would just like to share my views on it... Honestly, this is the 1st relationship so far that I truly cherish and wanna continue in. I really pour my heart and soul into building this relationship with her. But she seems as if I did nothing and wished to discontinue our relationship. Her reason being she can't like a person for more than a week and some other stuff... Altho that being said, I still love her... Damn stupid and stubborn of me huh? lol I just love her and its that simple... I'm just gonna leave my blog like this for now, I just wanna commemorate the position I'm in now... just that simple...

The 5 Love languages

2010-12-20T21:28:00.004+08:00

Hello readers~ Today I wanna share with you very briefly the 5 ways to express love and to feel loved. This 5 ways is universal and can be applied for your use and understanding. So enjoy~

1st we have the expression of Touch

Touch as in sexual and non sexual touches. A touch can be holding hands, a pat on the back, ruffling of hair or a soft nudge. A touch can represent a closeness in a relationship or a warm friendliness. Touching can bring people closer to each other for it translates a sense of "I'm here with you". For women especially a light non sexual touch would be great in increasing closeness in a relationship. For men, you guys know very well =] For me, I love it when my sweetheart put her hands on my head and messes up my hair~

2nd we have the expression of Gifts~

Gifts be it bought or made are to some people an important form of expressing love. Have you ever met a person who went to find out what you liked the most and went to buy the most expensive and most special and with your favorite color most sweetest gift for you and you are like thank you and put it in your drawer. Then the person says "you don't love me?" To some people or cultures a gift can express a great form of expressing love. For me, I love buying things for my sweetheart and I get very excited and overjoyed when she gave me a card she made herself with beautiful words written in them =]

3rd we have the expression of Acts of service~

Acts of service is helping out with something that needs to be done by that person. Its something you do and not expect to be paid. Like for example, help with buying something, cooking dinner, cleaning the house, fixing a chair or help with an online game like Happy Pets =] For me, I like to help her anytime she would need it, even if she doesn't tell me. Sometimes I make her agitated by being too concerned for her. =P

4th we have the expression of Words of Affirmation~

Words of affirmation is going deep deep into someone's heart and telling them the things that they wanna hear. Not only compliments or sweet talking. But words that really can say to them that you truly understand them. For this, you require alot of understanding of that person. For me, I'm still not too well verse in this act of love giving. You can ask my sweetheart, she sometimes get agitated at what I say xD lol

5th we have the expression of Quality time~

Spending quality time with a person to bond and connect with that person is very important. When it comes to this, you have to unplug, disconnect and remove all distractions and just be with that person talking about non sense and just spend time purely with him/her. For me, I would love to just snuggle with my sweetheart in a warm and comfy sofa alone with no tv, no phone, no distractions at all and just look at her and ask her 100 times the same questions~ =]

To truly be amazing in your life, you have to master and be well versed in all 5 of these languages =] You gotta know how to give the person a loving touch accept a loving touch without being confused a friendly touch a loving one. You also have to learn to appreciate a gift someone gives you and also appreciate the person you are gonna give a gift with most sincerity. Giving an act of service is also important and you should know how to limit the personal space and don't over do it. Using words of affirmation is also very important and must be used correctly. And also, the quality time to bond with =]
Everyone has one thing that they find more important than others. Which do you find is the best way to show how you love someone? and which do you want to be shown love with? Rate it from 1 to 5~
For me is--- 1)Touch 2)Quality time 3)Gifts 4)Words of affirmation 5)Acts of service

Understanding love and attractions

2010-12-20T00:05:00.006+08:00

Hey~ Thank you reading my blog. Today I'm going to share about something very very special for everyone of you =] This I believe is going to greatly benefit in your love life and/or in your current relationship with a partner of yours. So to all the ladies and men reading this~ Enjoy~

So today I would be sharing about how to look into love and how you can create a wonderful love life for you and for your lover as well. This wisdom is universal and I gathered this from many different backgrounds of understanding. You know that love makes the world go round. Its a fact really and this fact is crucial when it comes to understanding how you are going to create that wonderful love life that you are going to live in.Lets start by looking at the source of the one true love. No it does not start from someone who you admire or have a crush on or like. Its the person closest to you... its you yourself... Have you ever been rejected by a person or someone left you in a relationship or you have left someone in a relationship? Do you feel the hurt and pain or the sadness in that moments? If not then you haven't truly let anyone in yet. If you are not in the love life of your desires then that means you still have fear of getting hurt or hurting someone else in you. You have to learn to let go of this fear to truly enjoy a great love life. I'm sure to most of you that has been hurt before, you have created in yourself a 'limiting belief'. The belief that maybe you are not pretty enough, not handsome enough, not rich enough or not smart enough to be in a good relationship. So lets look at what a belief is. A belief is simply a thought that you have decided to be true and this belief creates your reality. To keep a belief alive, you feed it with evidence. You will go out and find those evidence to prove a belief. So you delete, distort, generalize and make things up to prove its existence. If you believe that you are not in a good relationship cuz of your body then you'll find every individual on this planet to prove that fact. You would say things like "look at that person there, he is dating her cuz she's pretty or look there, she is dating him cuz he is rich" and so you were creating your own reality. Do you agree? Snap your fingers if you do.
It doesn't have to be that way though. . . How you see yourself is soooo IMPORTANT to how others see you. Its important that we learn to teach people how to look at us or better yet, teach them how to desire us. =] But if you don't find yourself desirable, who is going to desire you???
So 1st off is understanding oneself and learning to love oneself 1st =]

The next part I will share with you on Good Looking VS Attractive =]
Good looking is all about structure. The face, the body, the cars, the clothes and the make up. All of these are only cultural though. What is good looking depends on the time period, the country, the culture and sometimes even the religion. So its not universal. There are alot of factors that do affect what the body decides as good looking. But good looking is not enough. Ok, let me just ask. Have you ever talked to a person who was good looking at 1st and after a few minutes you go "OMG this person is ugly". ever happened to you?? If yes snap your fingers. Then, have you ever talked to a person who was ugly by society standards but after a few minutes you go "oh I wanna be with you" ever had that?? Snap your fingers if you do. You see, Attractiveness is an energy~ Note that down and remember that. Good looking is only a structure. Have you ever met someone you had many things in common and there were sparks and light bulbs and at that moment you think to yourself "you are the one"?? Snap if you do. At that moment, something insane happens. Its either you are right or you are wrong. At most times I think I'm right xD but it might not happen that way.
So after researching on what men and women really want from each other, what causes sexual chemistry and what causes the feeling oh "oh I wanna spend more time with you". I've come across alot of interesting facts that I'm going to share with you here in this post. To readers who are single, sorta in a relationship or in a relationship. This is going to greatly benefit you. And so. . . Attraction. Attraction is not a one time thing. Its not a bait to get someone to fall in love with you and thats it. Attraction is a continuing process cuz guess what? People can fall out of love with you and you also fall out of love with them. Now I need you to understand that you are exactly where you need to be whether single, in a bad relationship or in a good relationship. This is going to be very helpful for you and for singles, this might be your turning point. So, keep an open mind and remember, we are just trying on new shoes here. If it fits take them home, if not them leave them here. =]
Ok, note that all human beings have 2 types of energies. The Masculine and the Feminine energy. Have you ever looked at a picture of your ex-lover and think to yourself "hey, he/she is not as attractive looking as before... is there something wrong with this picture or something" snap if you did. Well, when you have that attraction energy towards them. You saw them different from than their structure. Now you can just forget all about those pick up lines, or those hook up tactics that you have learned from the T.V and all the feelings of insecurity about yourself. Cuz true attraction comes from yourself.

Now comes the spicy part. . . What does Men find attractive in a women and what do Women find attractive in men~Lets start off with what Men find attractive then.
Men find attractive in women 2 things universally which are
1)Compassion...
A man finds compassion or the compassionate nature of women attractive when he starts to mature. If a man is not attracted to compassionate nature of women means that he is still a prince and not yet a king. A prince just runs around doesn't want any responsibility just fun. But don't put down a prince cuz there are also princesses too. Theres nothing wrong being a prince. Its just that the prince gets different opportunities than the king. By being a prince there is more freedom, but alot less control and alot less power. But when a man graduates and becomes a king who realizes that there is something more important than a woman's body. Snap if you agree. They find compassion important because it means a couple of things. 1st, it means they will make good mothers. But not all mothering are for babies. The mothering of a man's ideas, project or business. If we don't find compassion in a woman then we will just look at them as another dude, guy friend or buddy. We don't wanna open up and share the side of us that we don't show to our buddies. We don't wanna be emotional around you. Cuz when a man knows he is taking on the world and he can come home and come up to you and get love for no reason and that he needs to give nothing for your love... thats compassion.
The 2nd one is more to what the prince in us men love which is Adventure~
2)Adventure...
Ok, so I'm going to be blunt here. When a women shows that she not adventurous, it means to a man that she is not going to be good in bed or she is not going to put out or she is not going to try the dirty naughty things for pleasure and fun. Think about it, when you don't put out your adventurous side. Men are going to think "you are nice and soft and compassionate and all, but I have a biological mother so I'm outta here" But if you have too much adventure then men will go "OMG you're awesome! But... are you doing this with other guys??" so, too much adventure is fun and all, but when we wanna open up our hearts and the compassion is not there. You're just another party girl to have fun with and not get into a serious loving relationship. Girls get trapped in this situation where they are either the party girl or the mother... and they gotta be both, or a man would not wanna spend the rest of his life with her. Snap your fingers if you agree.So now, what do Women find attractive in a man.
There are also 2 things a man must have and they both have to beautifully balanced like women which are compassion and adventure. So they are. .
1)Confidence...
Let me just do a short comparison of confidence and arrogance. Arrogance is all about proving everything. Confidence is all about improving everything. The more a man improves himself, the more confident he becomes. Snap your fingers if you agree. I have nothing to prove and everything to improve on. That makes me free from all judgement. Judge all you want about me cuz I have nothing to prove~ and I know its your own stuff anyways. Confidence is about being in your own skin and loving it. You're happy to be in it and won't wanna trade it. Its all about knowing that you don't have to take or degrade anything or anyone to feel that you are enough. Confidence is attractive to a woman because no matter how tough a shell a woman tries to put on, she just wants to curl up in her man's arms. Snap your fingers if you agree. This might sound sexist but I'm ok with that cuz its not. Metaphorically, in a relationship a man is a tree, rooted steadily on to the ground and the woman is suppose to be the wind. Moving around, blowing the leaves, changing their minds, changing their oufits, their ideas and they are soo creative. Guys! Thats what they are SUPPOSE to do! haha~ So, when a woman comes to you freaking out, DON'T freak out with them! Thats what their girlfriends are for! to freak out in a group! all you need to do is to stay collected, cool, relaxed, steady and say "there there, now what can I do to make you feel more secure? I'm here for you" When you can create an energy of "nothing bad is going to happen to you and I'm here for you" a girl will fall madly in love. Snap your fingers if you agree. Confidence is all about being rooted and ever present. It also needs to be balanced with another component to keep the woman next to you attracted. and this component is. . .
2)Sense of humor~
Why is it so important to make a girl laugh??? its cuz women, you all hold on to tension. You all are like little stress buttons building up and when you need to release it, you need to laugh. Laughter releases stress as shown in studies. Do take note that the laughter must come from a positive space. Many people think the only way to be funny is to put someone down or to degrade someone and thats not good. Also bare in mind that it is also very important like that of the women that you have the balance of confidence and sense of humor. If too much confidence then you are just a rock. Too much humor then you are the clown. You can't always be the cold one or always be the one with all the jokes.
Agree please snap your fingers.

Many times men and women do the wrong things repeatedly because they do not come across information that I'm sharing with you in this post. Attraction is an energy and it has to be balanced.The next post I would share about the KILLER of attraction and the BUILDER of attraction. Till then, for any questions please leave it at my Facebook =] http://www.facebook.com/jason.pui1

Returning to life. Are you happy??

2010-12-16T13:37:00.006+08:00

Often times it seems as if the world is leaving you behind or you are leaving the world behind. Sometimes it seems like you move faster or slower than usual. There are also times when you feel like you are so in tuned with the world. It seems like time is actually working with you and moving along side you. Everything you do feels like a breeze. But thats only once in a while. Have you ever felt like the world is moving so slow when you do nothing?? Have you ever felt like the world is moving so fast when you are busy doing things?? Have you ever felt like everything is alrite when you do exactly the right things at the right time?? Well. . . I do to. . . and thats normal =]

This post I would be sharing on the happiness set point =]
Whats is the "happiness set point"??? --- Well, basically... the happiness set point is your natural level of happiness =] Research has been done and they have concluded that a person has a fixed happiness level in their personal being. Lets take for example. 2 persons with different situations and events that happened in their lives. 1st is the person who won a prize over 1 Million Dollars! You would think this person would be happy for the rest of his life rite?? But the truth is according to research, after a short one year his happiness would be back to exactly the same happiness set point before he won the 1 Million Dollars. 2nd is the person who got into a car accident and loses his legs. Also the same, this person got depressed the 1st year and returned to his original happiness set point later on in life. You can see how the evidence shows the existence of the happiness set point.

Now let look back to you~ Remember when you got your 1st cool phone or gadget? That sparkling new ring or that shiny new car? Or those new pair of shoes or maybe when you have fallen in love? At the very moment you got those things don't you feel awesome?? You felt delighted and happy correct?? But look at what happens a week or a month from that day?? The cool phone don't look so cool anymore. The shiny car ain't so shiny. The pair of shoes ain't so new. and the perfect lover ain't so perfect. You fall back directly to the same happiness level as you had before you got those things.

Is this clicking? Do you feel this having anything to do with your life? If so, take some time to think about it =] For happiness to really flow in you. You need to learn about flow =] I'll share more of that later on request~ To seek me just very simply visit me at my Facebook by clicking on this link here http://www.facebook.com/jason.pui1

Blog blog blog

2010-12-02T08:25:00.003+08:00

After soooo long without blogging about my life and hows its been, I feel kinda bad leaving my blog to rot like this. So I figure I'll come back and blog for a while. Well. . . Recently in my life.

I have a found a lover to die for. She is none other than my beautiful sweetheart~ I've been busy writing poems for her and giving her most of my attention. She appreciates it and seems to stop me from spoiling her XD~ She is one awesome girl =] and I'm proud and overjoyed to have her as my lover =] I'd like to show you her picture but not for now. =]

Well, just last nite. Me and a few of my friends went out to have fun. Lets see now, Teo Chung Wei, Daryl Lim and Jeremy Lim. yea, the 4 of us went out to have fun last nite. 1st we went to~~~

So, 1st of, we went to Blessed Church cuz I wanna go thru the Baptismal class. Good thing they went cuz they recieved alot of knowledge and a message that night. Then we went to~~

Pizza hut to have the cheesy 6 pizza~~~ Then I send Daryl and Jeremy home and took my siblngs and Chung Wei to get some supper for my dad and family. lalala then send siblings home then have a sleep over at Chung Wei's. A depiction of his house would be like~~~
Yup, I know. Its quite a mess, but at least it was nice~

So then we went home all happy with a smile like this lil kitty =]

I know, I miss my blog too~ xD

Red eyed wolf

2010-11-17T21:48:00.004+08:00

As the night grows still
I prowl soft and silent
ready for the kill
your death is imminent

As I move within the shadows
shiver as your hope dies
the moon lights on your grave
and finally meet our eyes

Run! Run from your fate
Howl~ its far too late
escape you shall not in this cold night
only the moon light gives you sight

I can smell you my prey
darkness is as bright as day
before your death you shall behold
my red eyes pierce through your soul

Death
As I devour you my prey
You become a part of me
as we are a part of this Earth
and from it we were given birth

Why? Reflection. . .

2010-11-16T23:02:00.005+08:00

I still remember, all the pain and the sorrow
I still remember, when it rained without a tomorrow
The darkness of my room was my home
The sound of music kept me from being alone
I needed no one, I'm fine with being alone
I'd rather hide in the corner, until my life was gone

Silent was the moment of despair
then the sudden bursting scream of anguish
the rage and pain can be contained no longer
and away with all my life's wish
A broken child hidden from the world
wandering the path of life aimlessly
taking any chance to inflict pain
the sweet taste of pain. . . its ecstacy

Born out of a mistake
given a life of unending satisfaction
never never never enough
like the abyss I'm falling in
no escape, there is no shortcut
except death. . .

and so. . . "death, I give you my hand
take me away, I'm done here"
But no. NO! The world will not allow me to leave!
Why? why did you call me? why me?
I wanna die! Let me die!!! But no. . .
no. . . Not yet. . .

When you've seen Death eye to eye
Life is no more an obstacle
Back on my feet
The world is now mine
I will not listen anymore
I will not care anymore
Fear is obsolete
You are all obsolete

Holding on to life by the neck
choking all that I deserve out of it
Return to me what is rightfully mine!
Spare me the excuses

Life moves on after my suffering
Until the day He found me
Trapped in my shell
I was happy, I don't feel pain anymore
For what do you call me back?
He simply says:"I'll comfort you"
years. . . years of pain and suffering. . .
years of contained anger and frustration
years of torment and loneliness
years of denial and rejection.
Became tears and a blood curdling scream erupted from within

Freedom at last
Free from the pain
free from the chain
My life starts again

The Savior saved me
The Savior had something for me
I had something I need to do
He wants me to see it through
My beautiful savior
Christ Jesus

Who would have known
I'm truly blessed
to have blessed so many others
God gave me a heart
A new start

But I'm still human
with painful memories
and when I forget Him
I remember these memories

and you
You who reflect me
You who caused me feel pain again
You who brought me back to Him
You who feel what I feel
You who wish to understand me

Our God is a God of Miracles
I believe!
I believe!

Sour sounds of salutations.

2010-11-13T01:29:00.002+08:00

I see that I have indeed lost for I heard no sounds and see no sight of my victory. This fall is short and I am not at all moved. I succeeded in a sense but defeated in another. I succeeded to uncover and expose which was unheard. But I failed to gain what I have desired. So I could say. I'm quite balanced and still at the usual happiness set point. Plus, I got some amusement from toying with a funny brat who think he's all that. Serves him right if he suffers. But I pray that he doesn't.

Injustice is served.

2010-11-11T18:04:00.002+08:00

Some times in life. You don't always get what you want. Some times the people, the circumstances, the situations don't play by your side. But its ok. Its just a small pebble stepped on by our sensitive lil feet. The lil irritation and frustration that bothers us now will be nothing 10 years from now. Did you ever see it that way? That when you are looking back 10 or 5 or a year from now it won't matter anymore? Well. . . I did.

You see guys, I'm hurt, disappointed and frustrated right now. Let me share with you why. Heres a short story of the cause of my frustration.

Let me begin with a lil look at the beginning. So there I was, freshman in college. New but as ambitious as ever. I was actively outspoken and open in class. You could say I drew alotta attention. So one day I was asked to join in the Young Entrepreneur Club in college by one of my dear lecturers. I was very enthusiastic about it. So I decided to join. The 1st meeting which determines the positions of the committee members was held. I could not attend for I was attending the Law of Attraction Seminar. So they decided that the a lady by the name Princess would be the President for she volunteered. So I took my post as committee pretty seriously. . . As time goes by, it is transparent that Princess is not suitable to be President of the Club. For she did not take up and fulfill the responsibility as the President. I was the one who arrange for meetings, I was the one who made the calls, I was the one who confirmed things with the lecturer in charge. Even though I was only a committee member, I had passion and enthusiasm for the club.

So after a while, we have the 1st REAL meeting for our college Prom night. I volunteered as MC and so did Princess. So on the 1st meeting we agreed. After awhile, my friend contacted my through Facebook just to ask me "why did you not attend the 2nd meeting?". I asked "what second meeting?". . . To my surprise and disappointment. I was not called to the 2nd meeting. I also got news that they changed the me with another guy by the name of Prince to be MC. So I just gave up on it and forget about the whole situation. Many weeks past until the week before the Prom night that would be held on the coming Saturday. On Tuesday, I got a call from the Organizing Chairman asking me for help.
He asks me if I would like to be MC.
Naturally surprised and confused I asked "why?".
He says "I need you to be MC, can you help me out? If yes can you write a script for me when I send you the run down procedures through email?".
I said "yes".
He said "good, I will send it to you 1st thing in the morning"

The next day, Wednesday. With my tight work schedule, I could squeeze in some time to write a nice script within an hour. I sent it to him and he says "good, can you come for rehearsal tomorrow afternooon 2-4pm at college where we can discuss more and modify the script abit?"
I said "sure, no problem"
He said "thank you very much"

Today, a Thrusday. I went there. Met up with The Organizing Chairman and we discussed. But there seems to be a problem. Prince and Princess, was given initially 2 weeks to prepare a script as MCs but they have not. They keep giving reasons and excuses of which they believe validates their inability to come up with a script on time. After a few moments to clear up, the organizing chairman asked me to talk it through with the General Manager to determine who would be the MC for the night. Before the discussion with the GM. Princess and Prince and I discussed 1st. They planned on buying my script from me, but I refused. After that, we then met with GM. The discussion was getting more and more confusing for the GM. The discussion ended by the GM with Prince and Princess left to be the original MC and given a second chance to write their own script. They at 1st said they wanted to give them my script and give me a token of appreciation. I did not want that. That is not what I desired. So I declined all other offers and take off with a defeat. But I haven't stop there. I talked to the Organizing Chairman after the discussion. I told him this "Let them write their script, then ask them to demo on Friday. If they fail to perform with satisfaction, let me know. I'll still willing to help."
He said "ok. I will. thank you and sorry"

The Prom Night is this coming Saturday, do you think they can make it? or do you think they will call me back? Stay tuned.

Believe in yourself and love it!

2010-10-13T13:50:00.000+08:00

I can't tell you guys enough. You guys are so full of potential, so full of power, so full of life and I love you guys. But you have to realise that in yourself. I can't blame you guys cuz its not your fault. You guys have been badly programmed.

As you can see from the picture above. The top is a computer programming script and the bottom is a band wagon for social media. I want to show you guys what is keeping you guys from dreaming big and believing in that dream that you have.

Well for starters, there is the bad programming. Our minds are super computers that are almost like the computers that we program ourselves. We learn and act in patterns don't you agree? When there is water boiling, we know it is hot. So we don't touch it. We start walking with one foot not two and we chew before we swallow. We have programmings in our minds that we follow on a day to day basis. But we also add in more from the surrounding people and information from the media. When I say media it involves TV, Newspaper, Radio, Facebook, Magazines and etc.(you know the rest) Parents, gaurdians, teachers, government and celebrities play a major role in the belief system. But as you can see, not all parents can show their children the right way of belief because they are also badly programmed by the government and media. Basically, everyone is trapped in this belief system. But 1% of the people on the world and 5% of those who succeed in life and live amazingly awesome lives break free from their limiting believes. The rest of the world just lives at awe at what the 1% and 5% few have accomplished.

There is no secret to their success. They just do what they have to do. The key is that they realise their potential. When you hear any successful band or music artist or a celeb talk about their life and their road to success, they will mention that they believed in themselves and they have people to support them by believing in them.

"Your internal belief system can either make or break you"

I want to show you today that you have to see the realisation of a belief. A believe is so powerful that it can make something awesome out of nothing. Airplanes and the light bulb.

They are the manifestation of a thought/belief.

So do you know what is limiting you from your own potential? Take a long hard look at the lives of others and see which you reflect and which you wanna be.

Need any help just let me know @ Facebook group Unlimited Dreams~

The young woman on the hospital bed.

2010-10-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

Do you understand life? Why do you do what you do? Why do you say what you say? Do you regret?

Today, I went to The General Hospital to visit my aunt's mother. Just the thought of going to the hospital makes me giddy with a smile. I loved to visit the hospital and still do. You see, the hospital to me is. . . a place full of life. When I express life, it represents the big picture of life. The birth of a child, death of a person. The tears of sorrow, the tears of joy. The sounds of mourning, the sound of cries, the sound of excitement, the sound of anguish, the sound of machines, the sounds of gasses, the sound of people running, the sound of people screaming, the sound of fear/hope. The sound alone would fill your mind with thoughts. I loved it. I love the sounds. Then there is the smell. The smell of glycol in the air. The sight of people lying in beds and people standing, walking, running around. Then there is the feeling of calmness around me. For me is calmness and inspiration. For anyone else. I'm not sure.

Life is short. Life is limited. Life is full of joy. Life is full of sorrow. Life is music. Life is soul. Life is religion. Life is passion. Life is love. Life is fitness. Life is honour. Life is family. Life is fill in the blank. Many different people look at life in many different way. Some could be as non sensical as dolls or collectables. Some as profound as the meaning of life or the truth. But when it comes to life. It is in general that life is full of mystery and discoveries. It can be complex or simple depending on the way some people see it. But generally, life is all about learning, discovery, growth and fullfillment.

Today I saw a young woman lying on the hospital bed. She looks beautiful. Her facial structure is very attractive. But, she lies there, staring away into space without blinking. Hooked onto a machine that monitors her body; a beautiful shell that should be containing a soul and spirit so beautiful to match her physical structure, now left empty. I looked at her and thoughts filled my head. Questions kept appearing. I was silenced by the questions and was looking for answers within myself. Seeking for the correct answers but I cannot find. For there is no wrong and theres no right. I could not understand my own thoughts for a second there. Then it hit me. Life is. . .

So after the visit to the hospital. I had another different experience. In the hospital where I was inspired by life. I am now sitting here, in the middle of tHe Spring Mall. I listened to music, sounds of people talking, sounds of people walking, sounds of joy and laughter, an occasional high pitched scream from a child and just now, I child crying in frustration. I was with a group of girls, Flor, Shell and Ena the birthday girl. As I sat there and as they talked. I was observing every single word, pitch, movement, tone, facial reaction and eye movement. There I realised that life is. . . I hear as they talk of other people, opinions of their own, clothing, appearances, careers, interests, grades, trips, fun and their own expressions. Reflecting life as it rides along the fabric of time. Life is meant to grow every moment. Thats the generalization of all life. It is meant to grow. If we do not grow in body, mind, spirit, soul, expression and fullfillment. We would surely perish.

The colour that our life is coloured in, the melody that plays to the strings of our life. The sweetness of the scent of brilliance that our life radiates, the warm fuzzy feelings of love and joy, the taste of the richest wine couldn't compare.

The darkness that traps us from sight, the white noise that drains the minds, the bitterness of the hurt and destroyed. The cold chill that runs thru our veins, the foul stench that contaminates.

Now as you see yourself. Now as you see others. Now as you realise. Life is fill in the blanks.

"We don't dream no more" says society. . .

2010-10-11T18:46:00.001+08:00

Where are you o people of power? Where are you visionaries and dreamers? Where are you people of passion and drive? Where are you?!

There is something wrong in our surrounding! Why? We are suppose to be strong! We are all suppose to be great! We are all suppose to live dreams of our fore fathers and ourselves! But look at what happened to us. After the age of industrialism. Many of us, fade into the multitudes. We were once so powerful, able to create life with the mere thought of our minds. But now, even the thought of dreaming the impossilble scares us to death.

Who did this to us? Who kept us locked in our box? Who limited our power of creativity, expression and potential? Do you know who the culprit is? It is what we call the system of our society.

Albert Einstien once said- "We are all born geniuses, but because we were given the wrong education, we became fools". Think for a second. When we are young, we could believe anything; especially ourselves. But as we grow older, we get restricted by our parents/teachers/media/society to climb back up to go that one more mile. We fall, but like a child, when he falls, what does he do? He crawls right back up and run towards what he was aiming for! What he wants! He gets! We are now silenced by society, we are programmed to believe that we should just live our lives simply just like that. If we have something to say, better keep it down or keep to ourselves. Unlike a child, if he wants something. What does he do? He screams his lungs out and jump and kick and think how the hell does he gets his hands on that thing. Then what happens? He gets it! But sometimes, parents don't allow him to have it.

We need to set boundaries ofcourse, we must not be spoiled or else we might hurt others and ourselves. But the problem now is that our society has domesticated us in such a way that we can't even have the freedom of full fledged expression. They did not restrict us directly but indirectly. Did you know that?

Here are a few questions you can ask yourself. What is your ambition? What do you want to do for a living? What age do you want to retire? What do you want to study?

You probably have answers for those questions huh? Maybe some of you don't but nevermind. You see, there is just one problem here. Lets take this example yea.

There is a typical top Malaysian student with top attitude and top top top and on top. He gets scholarships from every direction. He has to choose one to study at age 18. So he chose to some course that gets him great job opportunities and high income. After studying his butt of in college or University with a Masters or Doctorate Degree at the age of around 25. He gets a job~ with a minimun gaji of at least 50k~ awesome rite? ok. . . So he works for this company for the next 30 years till he reach retirement age which is? 55 in Malaysia right? alrite, age 55 with tons of money to travel the world and enjoy life with.

So lets recap, age 18-goes into getting a qualification. Studies his butt off to get a high pay job. Age 25-gets a high gaji job with a big company and enslaves himself for the next 30 years.

Age 55- retires. Gets all the money from the EPF and travels the world.

But what about your dreams? Was it your dream to be a CEO of a big company earning more than 50++K a month? if yes then thats the life for you~

For me, I want to live my dreams. What are my dreams? Well, I want to put a dent in humanity, I wanna contribute back to this world, I wanna donate a Billion dollars, I wanna travel to the moon, I want to drive the worlds most expensive car, I want to own an island, I want to have fun all day and work when ever I want to. Take my kids to anywhere in the world. My wedding anniversary would be in France with my sweetheart.

Now tell me. What is your dream?

Friends. . . There is no dream that we can call foolish. Remember that impossible is nothing. The light bulb. The airplane. The Internet. They were at one time a foolish dream. But what happens now? Join me in Facebook in Unlimited Dreams~ group and facebook page.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Unlimited-Dreams/152636704773186 is the page.

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=149594691734305 is the group.

Come and join us. I want to share with you how to dream big and make them come true. A step at a time.

My life story one step at a time. (Primary-secondary school life))

2010-09-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

Well, heres the second part to my life, my primary and secondary education. Oh yea, maybe alil bit on the kindy part~ Enjoy yea.

Kindy (age 4-6)

Okay. . . So when I was lil, I was born into a Buddhist family. Most probably they would send me to a chinese based buddha precept teaching kindy rite? They did. . . When I was 4, my parents sent me to Bodhi Kindergarden at 2nd mile. Its like a big temple and on the left side was the kindy and right a multi purpose hall with a stage. There I met alotta new people. . . Teachers and other lil children. . . lol Ps. My chinses sucks and heres why. . . So I learned stuff from there and also its all based in chinese. The best part I could remember from being at the kindy is learning how to button my shirt~ Now thats practical for ya! There I also had to face a troubled child how would disobey and at one time, hit some other classmate with a something a the head bleeds. . .lol. . . And there is the wicked witch of the school. One teacher that I did not know how to hate back then that my mom hated her for me. You see, one day, after school, my mom saw my ear had a deep crescent mark that resembled the markings of over forced pinching. . . After my mom realized that, the teacher had a pretty tough time. . . lol. . . I could also remember the taste of lipstick because I had performed dance or sing on stage with very heavy make up. . . lol. . . After 2 years there, my education was going no where and also because there was a witch there, my parents decided to send me to Rhema~~~ at age of 6 I was sent to an all english based kindy from New Zealand known as Rhema. There I met the most pleasant teacher ever~ Ever wondered why my english is somewhat better than most? Its cuz I studied at Rhema~ lol. So I was there for a year and that concluded my kindy education~

Primary (age 7-12)

Ok. . . So. . . in the year 1999, I entered primary 1 in SJK Chung Hua No.4~ There I learned multiplication and faced traumatic events. When I was in Primary 1-3, I had a few pretty bad experiences. . . Evil teacher, bullies and the sort. I was not strong in my chinese back then, so whenever the teacher asked a question and I was selected to answer, I would stand up and stay quiet and shrug. . . I'd rather STFU than to be humiliated lol. . . So the teacher took me for a retard. . . WTF lol. She placed me at the back of the class and I did not like that one bit. . . My mom was wondering why I had to sit all the way at the back so she investigated. She asked my teacher and my teacher replied by asking my mom was I dumb(not able to speak) or just plain retarded? How would you feel if you were a parent to hear a teacher question your child's intellect and pre-determined retarded and dumb? Well, lets just say the teacher had a rough time after that. So. . . my mom, wanting to seek revenge asked me to study hard for a small test. So I did with my mom's guidance and attention. I went from zero to hero. This goes to show that success is vengeance~ lol. . . So after the test was holiday and after holiday I sat right in front with new tables and chairs~ Neat huh? lol. . . I was in Primary 1 Yellow class till primary 3 and then I transferred school cause my dad bought a new shoplot for his business. Moved there and I transferred to SJK Chung Hua No.5, sounds like an up-grade huh? sorta I guess. So anyways, by me moving to the new school, I had a fresh start~ There I was developing myself, by being eccentric lol. . . I was viewed as eccentric by most, I scored highest in English in my class for 3 years straight and once 100%~ lol but never passed my science and maths and chinese and melayu lol. . . at that time, I could speak lil to no bahasa melayu. . . I had a small group of friends and never really mixed around too much. I am random and weird and different than others. . . Had my 1sr fight and learned many values in life there. Ironically the worst teacher is the most memorable teacher and thats funny lol. Early for me at my age to have burned and learned from my mistakes and I take those 'ways' of seeing things up until secondary school.

Secondary (13-17)

Secondary education is where I build the most of my today. This is the part where everything gets interesting. Its sorta too interesting that I would only share individually but not on my blog. sorry to say I've been lazy so~~~~~ =]

My life story one step at a time. (Birth-childhood)

2010-09-15T10:13:00.000+08:00

Well, guys, its a 1st for me to write my life story out in the open like this. But I got inspired by a friend who shared his in his blog, so. . . I just wanna reveal bits of myself that I could express in the best way to all you readers. I may keep some details but I would at least give you a general outline or a clue. So I hope you guys read it with pleasure and comment if you have to.

Birth

I'm born Jason Pui on the 15th July 1992 at a clinic which was kinda costly, thats what my mom told me so. . . yea. I was not such a lucky child, born in the wrong place at the wrong time. Life has not been fair to me even since birth. I was born with very pale skin and asthma. Due to my pale skin at birth, I had to be put under the light, something which also costs some money. Today, all that light darkened me as a result, woo. . .

Mom

Mom was a school athelete, loved to sprint, high jump, long jump swim and etc. Very out going, full of enthusiasm, great at talking, better at debating, always the helping hand and has a heart of gold. Youngest daughter to a single mother and 5 siblings.

Dad

Dad was a school celeb, son of a rich man, good looking, great at strategic games, leader of a once very famous boy gang, romantic and charming. 4th child within 5 siblings.

I am the eldest of my siblings, a perfect blend of mom and dad. My lil bro is more like dad, my lil sis is more like mom.

Family history

My family history, rich in greatness and pride. My great great granddad was a medicine man, a chinese physician with a code of ethics that could be equal to any great man ever lived. He lived an honorable life. His ethic was that he would share is skills and knowledge and wisdom without a cost. He would treat patients of their sicknesses for free. He would not accept payment but only small packets or rewards that we chinese know as 'ang pau'.

My grandfather, also a great physician by trade made a decision in his career. He needed to choose between treating people for free or make the family business big. So, with his bare hands he built our family company and became a millionaire. Awesome rite?

Me (child)

So my life started out with alotta good and whole lotta bad. My dad, ain't a perfect husband. My grandmother, ain't such a perfect mother-in-law. My mom, lived a not so perfect life in her new family. I am the eldest grandchild also to my grandparents and they take it very seriously when they say the eldest grandson is the one most looked upon. My childhood was filled with the material things/possesions that I want. Toys and good food and trips that most children at that age could only dream of. I had it.

I was born a timid child by nature. Scared of heights but very observative and absorbive. If I was out on a ledge or a small platform where my feet can't touch the ground, I won't move, neither will I cry. I would just stand quietly, waiting for someone to carry me down. I would also sit in training chair and observe my mom washing clothes quietly without even making a sound. I also loved to experiment, I'd mix different liquids that I could get my hands on so that I could mix em up and see what happens~ The only thing that happened was that the colour changed but hey, at least it was cool at the time.

I have more to share but I'll leave you guys up to here for now~ I'll continue in a short while with my dark times at school and how I despised some people and loved some people. Till then~ Keep on breathing~

Longing~

2010-09-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

After a long day,

I quote "I miss you"

thats what I have to say

and I mean it in every way.

As I express my Longing for you,

I can't help my soul's Yearning for you,

I can't help my hearts's Missing of you,

I can't help my mind's Thirst for you.

As I write my Longing for you,

the songs sing of you,

the colours reflect you,

the words written for you.

The day passes by,

You slip through,

in and out of my mind,

No matter how I try,

its like a flu,

unlike anything of its kind.

I think I'm in love,

but thats not the case,

Like the waves that crash into the cove,

the waves don't fall into place.

You are like the cove.

I am like the wave.

I knew I headed your way,

but I'd never expected my final destination.

I ran into you like I was running for my life.

then crashed into somewhere in your heart.

And there is where I am now.

unconstructed and unstructured was our fate,

as hours from early runs late,

I stand in front of my destinys gate,

I look but I can't see, I stop to hesitate.

I understand that life is phenomenal,

and thats the beauty of it,

Its like meeting you, its incredible,

Theres no way to deny it.

My Longing for you burns,

it burns deeply within me,

My heart and soul fuels the phyre,

I'm burning in a phyrerie desire,

As the clog in my watch turns,

I watch as I burn for thee,

The burning of this fire,

the fire by the name Desire.

But as passionate as the fire burns,

there is and will be an exhaust,

as the wheels of time turns,

there are always some flaws.

But worry not my dear,

for you are my ignition,

there will be no darkness, no fear,

you're the ultimatum to my completion,

Be it the winds,

be it the waves,

be it time,

be it space,

My Longing for you,

eclipses your life over mine,

as we intertwine,

These words are of you and mine.

Slowly horrible death by a beating from a spoon (A horrible poem for the bored waiting person)

2010-09-10T13:21:00.000+08:00

Dressed in a black hooded sweater and geared with a heavy aresenal

he somehow took things kinda personal,

He is a murderer on the loose, or and evil monk perhaps,

he does not die, he does not crap(not shown in movie)

the bleaches his skin, and walks like a transvestite

no one can run, no one can hide,

he will follow you where ever you go,

and slowly kill you, and I mean extremly slow.

His weapon of choice. . .

The blunt unltimate horrible phobia stirring eating utensil which scoops food(spoon)

Stirs, Prys Opens Objects Neccessity

No one knows where he come from, just know that he did

with a spoon, he will bang you to death.

Terrible death and horror,

a spoonful at a time.

Phyre burns from within.

2010-09-10T12:59:00.000+08:00

Phyre

The element

than permeates

that penetrates

that destroys

that creates

that burns

that lights

that exhausts

that never lasts

but always

and will be there

when a spark

touches

The

Soul

That

Would

Ignite

into

Phyre.

The Soul

Being

burning.

Its

Burning

With

Phyre.

The passion that burn brightly,

It permeates and shines throught thee,

it penetrates in the infinity of space,

with light that never slows its pace,

It will destroy anything it touches,

It will create anything is passes,

it burns, vigourously and exhausts.

But it will never end,

all it takes, is a spark,

a spark, to ignite the Phyre,

That will burn,

till the day you expire.

I never knew I wanted.

2010-09-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

I never thought,

that I'd ought,

to have someone like you,

into my life.

You're the best thing I never knew I wanted.

For the way, you changed my plans.

For the way, you are my end,

to a new beginning.

I must admit, you are not a part of my book

but if you open and just take a look

You're the beginning and the ending

of my new chapter.

So unexpectedly,

but undeniably,

happier.

Now its so clear,

I want you dear,

when you appeared.

So unexpectedly.

Home

2010-09-10T12:39:00.000+08:00

Home is where you are,

home is in my arms,

home is when you are here,

home is when you are near,

I wanna come home,

I've been out for too long,

please take me home,

I wanna be in your warmth.

I maybe surrounded by,

other people but I,

still feel so alone,

I wanna come home.

Its with you where I belong,

I'm not home when you are gone,

oh let me go home.

Hold me as I hold you close,

cuddle warm in the corner,

no other place I'd rather be,

there would be no other.

Babe I don't know why,

but when I look into the sky,

I hoped it would cry,

maybe because it reminds me of you and I

I feel so far,

from where you are,

I miss you so,

I miss our home.

Rain-in Warmth~

2010-09-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

As I seek, the purpose of our meeting.

I waited for your arrival, at my seating.

I recieved your call, and did not believe what I was hearing.

Your voice it sounds and so, resonating.

Far different from my expectation,

far further than my imagination,

at the very least of what I expected,

at the very most of its attracted,

By my thought of attraction.

Honestly I did not have a clue,

truly it was much of a surprise,

It took 5 seconds just to know you,

just enough to clear my eyes.

As I write and I write,

theres no wrong no right,

in this rainy night,

I write I write.

As the colours of your dark eyes reveal,

I stun as I witness a revelation,

As our eyes meet it thrills,

and spark to a whole new creation.

We stare and we stare,

while I hold on my warm cup mocha,

we share and we share,

all that is plain and wonder.

In the breeze, in the rain in rain,

I feel a warmth, like a rolling train,

5 hours we had together,

5 seconds seemed to matter,

Due that time has set us a boundary,

but we were never in a hurry.

For that 5 seconds I held your hand,

that 5 seconds I felt your warmth,

that 5 second made it clear,

all my 5 senses, felt you near.

As I write, it keeps repeating.

The same message that I am sending.

I have no idea what this is.

All I know is, this is.

As I feel that rain that hits my skin,

as I feel your warmth that fills my soul,

hear that ambience as it rings,

the sound of tip tappin rain.

As the raining of warmth under the rain-in sky.

I'm back from a while~

2010-08-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hey all, sorry that I've not updated my blog since a while ago. . . Been busy~ Well, to be totally honest, very busy. . . Went thru some hot and colds as well as ups and downs. . . They are apparently the same things but I juz wannna point that out for no reason. . . =] Start to use emoticons but I duno why. . Maybe lookin for a fuller expression or wadever. . . but most importantly, I'm back bloggin like I've never blogged before~

Today wanna share about how bloggin is an art which I obviously haven't mastered. . . I need a sifu in Bloggin man~ I hope to find someone like that. . . Anyways, thats for now. . . I'll blog some more when I think of something. . . Till then~

Rare fucked up rant!!!

2010-08-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

Hey people, today you get to see me fuckin post a fuckin rant on my wonderfully fucked up day? Ready? I dont fuckin care! A lil bit of contrast from the last post of the awesome day. Its time for Mr.Hyde to fuck Dr.Jekyll. Mai cao fuck ju liap si. I hate these fuckin people. Not them, no, not them. I like people. I juz fuckin hate their fuckin behavior!!! WTF man?! Why you do me like that? Why do I fuckin deserve this shit?! fuck man? Fuck you! Shit! cont later!!!

OMG, one of my most awesomemest day since a long long time ago.

2010-08-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

Today, 2nd day of this ''Right brain development'' course which I have no intention to join at 1st. but, alas joined because my fam wants me to. . . My aunt, cuz, bro n sis. ok then. . . since I'm not payin RM450 for it might as well go. . . So I went for the course, late on da 1st day, but the 2 teachers were very nice. They were very nice and joyful and very good at what they do~ But, unfortunately for me, I'm da only guy in da room who cant seem to comprehend most of what they are teaching because they use MANDARIN to teach. . . So. . . yea. . .

the 1st half hour, they talked abt this course and some Baroque music dat cud help learnin process. Then they had a small assesment to test our memory. well, we were all given 50 words to memorize in 5 mins. The avg ppl scored 15-20. . . Guess how much I got? to my surprise and the surprise of others. Wad I tot of as an average score turns out to be very high. out of 50 to memorize in 5 minits, I got 40. . . holy shit, the teachers were like 'have u went thru a similar program?' 'wad technique do u use?' and I said :'I duno -shrug-, I juz count with my fingers~'. They were all amazed for a moment and I felt proud but awkward for everyone was like ''omg, freak man~'' haha, I loved that. From then on, they nicknamed me ''Gifted''. . . lol . . . In the 1st day of da course, I shined like a star. I won a book worth RM70, din bother to read it cuz it was in chinese so I gave it to my bro, Then my bro win a mag. at least he tried. I had to memorize all 50 different words in 10 minits then repeat them on stage. So, I did. hehe. The challege for the next day was to rmb 101 things and must state the thing according to number, lets say, 85. . . 85 is file, and u must state that. so, yea. Then u hav to rmb Pi to the 100. . . Which is 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510582097494459230781

64062862089986280348253421170679

haha, guess wad happen the next day~

So, 2nd day at the course. Today, the nig challenge, they skipped the 101 words but instead, tested us on the Pi. . . I had the honors of being 1st. . . I've always been 1st, since yesterday, they were like, afraid of the stage or sumtin. But ofcoz I was also nervous to go up. But I did anyways. So, with any challenges, there was a prize, the prize they offered was a limited edition CD, I was kinda motivated to get that prize, so I went ahead. . . bla bla bla. I did it. . . all Pi-100, accurately in 5 minits on stage. Ofcoz I stuttered, but at least I made it. Instead of gettin the CD, I got 100 bucks~ Cuz when they ask my ambition, I said 'Entrepreneur'. . . haha, 100 bucks, in my pocket~ they were very nice teachers, I love their teaching method. The skills and techniques of learning was also excellent. I gotta bring my frens there. and so. . . wait, my awesome day hasnt end yet.

after the 2nd class ended, me n my cuz went to celebrate. . . I had a 100 bucks, n I wanted a pink shirt, so I got one for 50 bucks. got reload for 20. and the rest I belanja to my awesome fam.

In class, I also made many frens. Its hard to deny the fact that I'm an attention magnet. The teachers claim that I'm the ''most brilliant'' student they ever had. Damn I'm proud to be me rite now~ haha, so I made many frens and got 9 facebook adds~ ok I guess. . . haha

went to Boulevard, Saberkas and Spring in under 3 hours juz to shop, damn~ then we ended the nite with a 5 person kolomee plus drink on me for rm3o.40~

and also, someone that holds sorta dear to me said she is not ''attached'' anymore. . . wow

That juz makes my day even more awesome-er~

So there you have it, one of my most awesomemest days in my life. A random one~ I'm so thankful for everything. Be happy for no reason~

Its all business babe. . .

2010-07-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

I made 200+ msgs today thru text and has spent da whole day online meeting people for business purposes. . . Whoooo. . . I met a few new friends today and also got 3 new handphone numbers~ whoooooo. . . Today I also managed to make someone very happy~ whoooooo~ I feel good today~

I took an intuition quiz. . . I'm in between Level 3 and 4 in the quiz which is really good. So. . . yea, a good day, I'm juz bloggin now outta need I guess. . . So I'll juz end here~ Its all business babe~

The life that we are trapped in. . .

2010-07-25T01:08:00.001+08:00

So. . . as you know, people go to kindy, primary then secondary school to study. They study the syllabus set by the government. After most of their lives studyin and they finally graduate from the basic average education pre-set, they then decide what they want to do next. By the time they finish secondary education, they would be age 18+, legit to do things equivalent to as an adult. Its either work or study, thats wad my grandparents would always say. So, some people choose to work, some study. But as you can see, the majority of all of us believe that with higher education (degree and above) we can get a high income job. Then those in the minority believes that high income comes through experience in the workin field.

So. . . One path have to be chosen. But there is always one thing that has always boggled my mind. . . Why is it that the education that they have given us since kindy has leaded us to earn money by workin for other people? Why didn't the system teach us how to make our own money? We spend tens of thousands of RYM and years of our lives to get a higher education recognition cert so that we can get a job to make other people richer. We as graduates become employees. . . We used to pay money to become a student to gain the title of graduate. But after that, employee. . . When will we ever be boss? When will we ever get the cars we wanted? the house we wanted? the friends we wanted? the life we wanted? EVEN WORST STILL, many fresh graduates are now UNEMPLOYED! No job. . . On top of dat, how much do they offer a fresh degree holder? 2000+ a month? do you know how much the cheapest car costs? Do you have any idea how much the bank will charge u in lending their money to buy a car? Do you know how long you have to enslave yourself with work to pay off that DEBT? 10-20 years? How can you even enjoy your youth?

I feel very very sad that this is happening most of our youths these days. The parents say, go study engineerin, accountin, medicine or even dentistry. You know why? Because they can find jobs with high income. Then after they done their higher edu studies, they then ask wad to do? The parents will say, go find a job. . . . So, after a while in their line of work, got their first car on loan from the bank. The parents will the ask, when will we get to hold our grandchild? So the now workin graduate finds a mate and gets married. The worker now makes a decent 8000+ a month and is married with 3 children at the age of 40. Have you heard of any people like these? I bet u do.

But then, have you ever heard of a gal, making 25000+ a month at the age of 25? I am glad to know this person and is now heading that direction. No its not a typo, she makes twenty-five thousand ringgit per month. But not everyone can do that. Only those who are lucky enough to meet this opportunity and those who are willing to learn and change, can achieve what she is doing now. If you want to do what she can, follow my lead. Seek me in Facebook

Throw your monay!

2010-07-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

So. . . I've been listenin to rap music recently. . . I've discovered that the things that they ''rap'' about are all that they are and what they are gettin. . . I mean like, they rap about money, they get money. They rap about living the good life, they do get it. I mean, if you trace it back to the past, before they had all the wealth, the rap about it. Check Jay-Z out, he went from rags to riches after rappin out lyrics of his tots, he can write without pen n paper lol, because his words are fixed in his brain. Lets just ask ourselves, what words linger in our mind. . . Then we will understand that the words can materialize in to something very real. Take for example, have u made a wish n the wish was never granted? But when u keep on complainin how your life sucks it sucks even more. . . Now lets juz experiment for a sec. . . I want you to DON'T think about elephants in PINK boots. . . What did you think about? I believe you thought about elephants in pink boots. You see, your brain CANNOT control. . . Like google search. . . If you type in ''NO Apple'', what will google results give you? Surprisin isn't it? Think about it~

Crab!

2010-07-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

Well, no class today. . . Spent da whole afternoon in my room revising on my driving law exam thingy while dancing to dome hot beats. . . My body damn sore now. . . Long time no blog lo, has been kinda busy~ Anyways, examin now, 3 more papers. Driving law exam 2molo. . . Wish me luck. . . hmm. . . Juz now, my dad brought us to Golden Corner to have some crabs and clams and premature chicken. I know, for those who think dirty it sounds so. . . Wrong. . . anyways, gonna start bloggin for fun when I have the time lo, juz to release tension. . . so. . . yea. . . nites~

A nice day

2010-05-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

OMG. . . Not much chance to blog lo. . . KNSla my schedule. . . . Anyways. . . Today is good day. . . was kinda late for da Business Organisation Progress Test. . . It starts at 9. . . I woke up at 838 when my fren called me. . . If t wasnt for him, I wud hav forgot abt da exam. . . I got there at 905. . . damn fas lo. . . Don ask if I got shower. . . Then got there, took da exam. . . Last one in, 1st one out. . . Went thru da exam like a robot. . . lol. . . Then after dat, followed Su Lings Red MRS back to her hs then followed Ju Yings car to the Spring. . . Had Sugarbun for lunch, then did some stuff. . . Su Ling went to get her hair trimmed. . . I had to wait, but kinda lazy so i walked around wit Roy. . . Met Joel, Isaac, Spiff, Joanne, alotta other frens. . . Aaron Liew worked at Digi there lol. . . Then met Hui Zcheng goin shoppin wit her mom . . Then met Timothy and many many others lo. . . Also met and shook hands with a Malaysian Celeb Jason Lo~ Damn nice lo~ Din expect dat. . . Then went to watch a movie wit Felix, Angelisa, Dianne and yuan fang. . . Watched da Nightmare in Elm street. . . ok la. . . Then went home. . . She za is back in Kuching. . . better lookin now. . . Wanna go see her later~ She is workin across da street from where I live lo. . . Hope to blog when I can find da time. . . Till then. . . Music soothes my burning soul, beauty is the essence of inspiration~

My burning desire. . . Phyre in my head, heart, soul. . .

2010-05-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

I have a burning desire for something more. . . More this more that. . . I believe that everything has a price. . . I believe wad goes up must come down. . . I am now terribly busy with life. . . Even bloggin seems to be hard to open up a time slot for. . . I hope I can get my tots out in youthsays voiceout 2 lol. . . Phyre in life is important. . . Gotta burn with life. . .

Day 1. . . Best things of being a youth today.

2010-05-20T10:57:00.000+08:00

Well. . . The convenience of technological innovations and the developed social systems are the best things for youths today I guess. . . I mean, youths nowadays can connect to each other so very easily and also, they practically have their future spoon fed to them. The youths today can get education so very easily, scholarships come in by the dozens and educational institutes workin 24/7 non stop to fish in new students. The future seems to be. . . Good. . . It is planned, so I guess it should be good. I know for me, I'm not able to fore see the future but I guess what I do today will mold my 2molo so. . . I guess I can kinda make my own future?
For my generation, the future seems bright. . . I do worry about the fact that alot of people are talking about the 2010 end of the world ammargeddon tragedy that will befall us in the end of days that could destroy the earth and everything we know of. . . Its mentioned in many religious texts but, I duno. . . The chances are kinda slim. . . But hey, anything can happen. . .

Rebellious youths. . . The Phyrerie point of view. . .
Youths are rebellious by nature. . . Partially true. Most youths do wanna be unique, and by being unique, one must stand outta da crowd, that means, being rebellious. . . So. . . Lets say that a guy had an extreme hair do that no one else has. He is being unique or in the other sense, rebellious. It depends on the peoples rational point of view. I guess the people then do rebel juz as bad as we do. . . But with at a higher expense. . . For me, I rebel by doing a few things that other people don't. . . I rebel the norm and embrace my uniqueness. . .
I rebelled againts my grandparents wish to get me to be an accountant. . . I rebelled against unconditional school rules. . . I rebelled againts bullies. . . I rebelled againts government decision to change Sci & math in Bahasa Malayu use of lang in teachin. . . So. . . I do rebel. . .

We have it all. . . but it ain't totally good. . .
Seriously, we live the life now. . . Our parents didn't even know what is the internet when they were our age lol. . . We have easier access to an infinite bank of information. . . We have a system that is far better than before. . . Our generation is the generation of pampered children. . . which I think is not the best thing for us. . . Our parents are able to pamper us because they have been thru hot and cold and thick and thin. . . Their success did not grow on trees lol . . . They had to work real hard for it. . . So. . . I conclude the fact that we live much more of an easier life compared to our parents.

Death. . . And. . . (biggest fear in the world)
The biggest fear other than death would be. . . Actually, I am not really afraid of death. . . I let by gones be by gones. . . If it was meant to be, wth, juz go with it. . . So. . . I. . . am. . . afraid of. . . confusion. . . When I loose my ability to think straight. . . I would be terrified. . . so thats my biggest fear, thank you for sharing. . . lol

Me. . . Happy. . . The cause. . .
I am happy when I am able to get things done smoothly. . . When there are no complications nor obstacles that deter me or block me from getting what I want. . . But I'm ok with the fact that unwanted things will appear naturally. . . Theres no such thing as a free meal so. . . Gotta keep workin at it ya. . .

The most difficult time of my short 17 yrs of life. .
The most difficult hurdle that I have to overcome in my life would be when I was in Form 5. . . I had to juggle my studies, co-curricular activities and face my parents divorce at the same time. . . I also had to cope with depression and minor insanity. . . At that time, I actually became suicidal. . . I attempted once but failed. . . It hurts so I think I won't do it twice. . . There are also some relationship probs between me n my frens, family and teachers. . . I had become a destructive person in society. . . But thankfully, my school counsellor and the church helped me get back on steady ground. . . I am very thankful that God showed mercy and blessed me so that I may have today. . .

Family AND friends. . . .
They are all very very important to me. . . But most importantly is me myself and I. . . They love me and I love them. . . So. . . I would not wish to hurt anyone of them and they also would not wish to hurt me. . . When family calls, I go. . . When friends call, I go. . . But when both calls at the same time, I would go to whom who needs me the most at that given time. . . So. . . yea. . . At one time, my friends asked me out to celebrate my 16th B'day. . . My family also planned it on the same day. . . I had to choose between celebtating it with my family or with my friends. . . So I had to. . . choose. . . Man I hate to choose. . . So at last. . . I chose to stay with family then I baru celebrate with my friends. . . I attended the party they planned for me kinda late but at least I got there. . . Being fashionably late lol. . .

More about me. . .
Err. . . I am 17 now. . . almost 18. . . After 18 I would be very happy cuz I get to gain access to places and things that I can't have now. . . So. . . I would consider myself a dynamic, talkative, fun loving, art loving, science loving, nature loving and all around loving person. . . I like romance, passion, phyre. . . I like fun, excitement, puzzles and extreme sports. I do not like, emotionally disturbing events where I canot find a way out. . . I like problem solving. . . I like giving suggestions. I like learning. . . I like whole lotta things. . . My wish is to be a successful person interms of finance, health, relationships and career. Thats about it for now. . . Thank you for reading. . .

Finally able to blog again. . .

2010-05-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, just done my Business Communication Progress Test and I can blog again! lo. . . I wanna wanna wanna get things down now! Its time to blog! Argh! Its so frustrating! I wanna but then, lol. . . So. . . Now I'm in the campus comp lab again. . . bloggin my heart out. . . But actually, I wanna get another assignment done lol. . . Blog some more later then.

YouthSays sent me the topics dy. . . hehe

2010-05-18T17:17:00.000+08:00

o.0, I got the topics! Now juz waitin for them to send me the format lol. . . 1st day~ I nid to blog abt Youths today lol. . . Wads the best thing about being a youth today? I think well. . . Being surrounded by technology that makes our lives all so convinient for us and yea. . . lol. . Will blog about it when the format reaches me lol. . . Anyways. . . Accountin PT today. . . I kinda didn't do so well lol. . . Didn't get both of them balanced lol . . so. . . I hope at least I get enough to score credit.. . I had a big fat speacial burger to cheer me up lo. . . chicken hot dog beef egg cheese costing me Rm5.50. . . diu lo. . . I think I over indulged today. . . lol. . . Now bloggin in the campus computer lab. . . I guess there are no rules bounding me from bloggin in here so. . yea. . . Blog some more later. . .

The English for Learning pregress test. . .

2010-05-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

3 sections. All subjective, 1 essay 250-300 words. . . I ended the test at exactly the same time I end my FC exam. . . Around 1 hr 5 mins. . . My essay consisted of 346 words and I wrote about the importance of unity among cultures in Malaysia. . . It was ok I think. . . lol. . . Reminded me how SPM was lol. . . But I think this is a lil bit easier than SPM lol. . . Anyways, I have nothin on my mind but dancing lol. . . I duno why lo. . . Anyways, cont bloggin later~

lol. . . I guess. . .

2010-05-17T00:31:00.001+08:00

o.0. . . I actually posted this one by accident when I havent even started typin. . . lol. . . I gotta get a vacation lol. . . So anyways. . . Some things hasnt been workin out for me lol . . I wanted to participate in the Go Bald campaign, but it didn't happen. . . lol. . . Haiz. . . So feelin so destroyed rite now. . . Even my vocab has become so so. . . YouthSays actually chose me outta a hundred other ppl to be within 50 bloggers who is going to blog about 13 topics for 5 weeks. At the end of it, I will get Rm500. . . An extra Rm100 for the top 10 I think. . . Anyways, I hope I can blog my best lo. . . See my current blog, simple as can be, I bet any other beginner would do even better than me in deco of his/her blog lol. . . My mom got baptised on the 15/5/2010. . . I was there to witness it lol. . . err. . . EFL exam 2molo morn. . . n again, I din do revision. . . Done FC assignment. . . Easy as cake~ So now, here we are, waddya want from me? I think I might have got infected by that Chrissa gal, and also that Ellen gal, and also maybe Eunice, Vanessa, Sherylyne and somemore I think. . . lol. . . I guess young people these days. . . Man, I sound so old. . . Well, I think I might have to come up with a personal quote to put as my main personal quote. I think I should quote ''I am not as young as I seemed'' hehe. . . lol.. . Ppl will never guess correct my actual age~ Well, gotta head to bed. . . BZZZZZ, End of transmission~

1st Progress Test. . . Fundamentals of Computing. . .

2010-05-15T10:29:00.000+08:00

I guess. . . It wasn't too hard. . . I guess I was damn lucky lol. . . The last 10 minute revision in the car reali helped me alot lol. . . A lil bit goes a long way. . . The revision actually helped contained 80% of my answers lol. . . I was the first to finish at 1005, exam started 900. . . It took me roughly over an hour for me to finish the whole thing lol . . . I guess it was fun. . . My brain was like, robotic lol, nothing but info by info being sent to my hand to be put on paper. . . I think. . . I might have lost it(mind). . . Anyways, based on the dictionary, insanity means repeating the same action but expecting a different result. . . Maybe insanity is a good thing? ok. . . I duno. . . Anyways, thats abt it. . .

Don't have to argue over me the fact that you already loss. . .

2010-05-15T01:11:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the very interesting debate. . . I wish you the best in finding your true love which I believe does not exist. . . If true love do exist. . . Many people have NOT found it. . . So. . . I can conclude my victory and the fact that money can build a long lasting relationship and is more important than love. . . But love is important to. . . juz to justify, I will now, explain the beauty of love. . . The amazing thrill and ecstacy and will turn lives around and bring people to another dimension is the wonderous feeling of love~ There will be no meaning to live without love. . . but as you can see, life is the only thing worth living for actually. . . If u say u wanna die for love. . . I wud say, go ahead you FOOL. . .If you say that love is everything. . . I will say, live on love alone then you FOOL. . . But if you say, love is important to you, I wud say, that is wonderful. . . Because love is, important. . . But if you say, money is not as important, I must let you noe that it IS more important then love. . .Cuz, you can't feed people without money. . . Jungle people you say? Then go be one then. . . You cant contact your darling without a phone which needs $$$ to buy. . . So please please please, wake up and smell the daisies, You'd better wake up or grow up. . .

Rationality. . .

2010-05-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

Are you sure what you are thinking? Are you sure what you are thinkin what you are thinkin? What is rational to you? Are bugs edible? Should medicine be bitter? Should tatoos be taboo? You think for yourself. . . If you hate the person who says the correct things, are you correct? Are you sure you are correct? How do you choose the one thats justice? I think its best, but yet its not. . . To you. . . So how? Who is the one to admit it? anyways, as you keep thinkin on the facts. . . Heres wad happened today. . . err. . .Mornin, did FC assignments, refer earlier post, then Business Organisation class then go home. . . It was rainin sorta heavy I guess. . . Then watch MR.Bean. . . Then tried to convince people to join da Education trip to Cultural Village then yada yada. . . I blog this. . . hehe, feelin ok, rejection seems like nothin but an irritatin mozzie bite now. . . It hasnt always been this way, in the past, rejection could mean the end of the world, but now, its nothin much to me. . . Gotta face the facts its a normal part of life. . .

Assignments!!!

2010-05-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

Well. . . I'm in da college comp room doing my Fundamentals of Computin assignment with Chan Qiao Nee and Lim Chin Chin. . .Its sub-zero cold in here and I can feel my toes freezing and becoming ice solid. . . Anyways, assignment goin so far so good. . . I'm havin kinda a bitof fun enjoyin my piano music while I type out my assignment. . . I reali need to get myself a high performing computer lol . . . Anyways, gota get back to my assignment ya~ LOL~

I am twirling around. . .

2010-05-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

Can anyone? Please? Tell me why the world must revolve around and around and around and around? Why don't it juz stay put in place? I don't want facts, I want. . . Infinity, tell me all that you can tell, if you can't comment here, do it in Facebook, juz look me up, jx8green@hotmail.com So maybe, if there is, an answer, may it be from yourself. . . I wanted to tell you, but I lost those words when I looked into your eyes. . . I wanted to smile, but you wouldnt let me. . . I wanted to cry, but I couldnt, cuz you were there. . . I couldnt help, laughing. . . cuz of you. Now tell me, why? Stun me, burn me, captivate me, lift me, leave me, drop me, hold me, help me, heal me, carry me, stay with me. . .

How must I?

2010-05-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

So if I. . . Must boost commitment! Sense of urgency! Gotta give a 100%! LOL. . . I wonder. . . Anyways. . . I wanted to blog abt the Leo Idol thingy held at Swinburne on the 8th May dis year, the Winner is a ok plum dude who I, by my opinion did not deserve to win. . . Cuz I feel that his performance was not at all entertaining. . . But Mohd Firdaus and Christabel Chong who are 1st and 2nd runner up both did stunning performances. . . One danced and the other sang. . . Both Swinburne students. . . Anyways, I think it be best I don get too worked up over such a stupid lil contest. . . Went there wit Ben Carlin Sim and his elder bro Alex Sim. . . So anyways. . . It was a Saturday. . . and the followin day is a Sunday, which means the 9th of May which means Mother's day~ Told my mom happy mother's day and thats abt it. . . lol. . . I couldnt give anyymore. . . lol. . . Juz went to dinner at a tightly packed restaurant lol. . . Saw Leanne Lum there. . . Why da heck do I always bump into her? lol, She is literally the one person that I bump into the most times by coincidence. . . lol~ Anyways, tons of stuff needs to be done. . . Have been calling Adeline and Yuri Reen alot lately aft I got my Digi Campuscalling plan. . . lol. . . I think I might be near to changin my relationship status lol. . . Fundamentals of Computing assignment still undone plus accounts homework still havent finish. . . But I still can feel so damn free o. . . Even tho I am runnin around with alot of things to do. . . I can feel so relax lo. . . I think its good. . . Relax~ I'm gonna pull an all nighter~ See u guys in da morn~

Is it?

2010-05-08T04:15:00.000+08:00

Well. . . Choir, AIA, kueh chap, called Adeline, called Yuri Reen. . . Todays weather is damn hot. . . Choir was ok~ alot of them didn't attend and that sucks. . . I didn't have strepsils at the time. . . They plan n practice to perform Time of my life. . . Which I think ok lo. . . Then later Ben Carlin Sim performed a song She was mine with his younger bro George Sim. . . It was such an adorable performance. . . Then went to AIA to learn more stuff. . . Aft dat, went to Bintawa to have one of da best Kueh Chap you can find in the whole of Kuching. . . Then went to MacD to study, my frens idea. . . Met some old skulmates there and also Joel~ lol, nice~ Called Adeline and talked to her at MacD there oso. . . Then I got home. . . Called Yuri Reen. . . From 12-420am. . . We kinda have alot to talk about lol. . . Then I baru blog. . . lol. . . For a person who struggles with being fat, any option will do if ot means slimming down. . . Even taking potent stuff dat are bad for them. . . Its almost like a starving person lookin for a way to fill his empty stomach. . . Anything will do. . . So you people who have already got an average body. . . Please be grateful and don't spoil yourself with smokin, drinkin, drugs or overdose. . . Its for your own good~

Long day~

2010-05-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today. . . Schedule tightly packed~ Morn 10am, meet Chin Chin n Chiao Nee for FC assignment discussion and execution. . . Then at 1230, talked to and help a troubled fren outta her love dilemma. . . Anyways, then later, class starts at 2pm. . . But then Yuri Reen texted me to tell me about an accident she juz went thru. . . She scratched her dad's new cars body kit. . . She was so worried so I called her to comfort her and try to solve her prob. . . Then at 315pm Janice met up with me to get some application form filled, so I helped her to get it from da management~ Then we went to buy fries lol. . . Then at 5pm, meet Pastor Stephen George with Su Ling. . . After da discussion to plan a recreational outin, I went to meet frens at Four Points at 630pm. . . Then went to cousins at 730pm. . . Called Yuri Reen and Adeline Chua to chat lol. . . Then went shoppin at MJC wet market. . . Then got home, bathe, called Adeline, then blog. . . lol. . . one day gone~ lol, words of da wise for today. . . Remove the freakin knife to let the wound heal~

Calling. . .

2010-05-06T08:38:00.000+08:00

Well. . . Juz a few days ago. . . I bought a new mobile number for its calling plan. . . Digi Campus. . . I bought it for one purpose. . . Free calls after spending RM2~ not only calls but sms n net surfin as well~ So basically, dis is wad happened. . . last nite, my hand itched to make phone calls due to da fact that I can call for free and talk till da cows come home. . . So I looked thru da phone book to find someone to call . . . I actually have someone to call initially but she was busy doin laundry then have to complete her homework . . . so I called other ppl. . . Then bla bla bla, I called her. . . I talked to her thru da phone as I had supper with my family at Taiwan Fried Chicken. . . I like da way she laughs, and how she enjoys playin LFD2. . . hehe. . . bla bla bla, talked from 1220-140-ish? can't reali recall. . . but after that, when I got home, I saw my initial mobile number had a missed call, so I called the missed caller and talked with her. . . Surprisingly our conversation ended at 5am. . . . . . . . . . Now I'm kinda tired due to dat. . .My fault~ Anyways, gotta go take a bath now, got appointments at 10am, must be punctual~

Hey, in love? Find your solution right here!

2010-05-05T00:12:00.001+08:00

Lookin for a solution to a love problem? You have come to the right blog babe~ All you have to do is. . . Look into the damn freakin mirror and say: Wad da heck is wrong with me????. . . Problem solved! Is love with you? or against you? or on you? or above you? or below you? or in you? You think for yourself lo~ Can anyone stop you if u wanna love that special someone? No right? Then you must be some idiot lookin for an answer here. . . Wake up fool!

Ip Man 2. . .

2010-05-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

Well. . . The movie is nice~ I'd give a 7/10~ The fightin scenes are really cool~ If u wanna watch this movie, make sure you like violence~ Cuz there are nice scenes of minor violence lol. . . For martial art lovers! You are gonna love this movie! For anyone who wants to leave the movie theater with goosebumps and a smile on their faces I strongly suggest you go watch it~ Chinese, I urge you guys to watch it~

I'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong. . .

2010-05-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

I am not in love. . . cuz I know, love never intended to keep me. . . But instead. . . Love flows thru me. . . I feel like I have a lot of love. . . and I wanna give it all out~ But I dunno. . . Man! I gotta stop sayin dunno! lol . . . I'm a Kuchingite wad, can't control lol . . Miao~ Anyways. . . Thoughts are all I have to share today. . . Loggin in bloggin is hurtin my noggin so dis will do. . . So, boys and girls, why do you like each other??? Some please, enlighten me~

Sunday. . .

2010-05-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

wake up in the mornin eatin nice rice curry, TikTok~ anyways, went to Golden Arch kopitiam to eat wit grandparents n siblings. . . Then in the aft around 3, went to talk with Uncle Yong Tze Liong at his house. . . Then at 5, meet wit fren A,C,D to settle the whole issue. . . Went ok till fren A started cryin n walked home. . . Then bro.Titus fetched me to church~ Got there, praise n worship, learn about the Year of the Lord's Blessings which is dis year. . . Then aft churh went to Top 10 kopitiam to hav a drink wit bro.Titus. . . Talk talk wit him n my mom til 12am. . . Then went home. . . The fren case solved, he states he wants to start a new life~ Erm, Su ling, I kinda like told her dat I was interested in her, but then she said she has someone else in mind so I'm cool wit dat~ Next time then~ Rejection won't kill me now~ So today is an ok day~

Interesting day~

2010-05-02T02:24:00.000+08:00

Today. . . Woke up kinda late. . . 12.50pm~ hehe, so many msgs n missed calls lol. . . Get ready to go, Central Church seminar held the Harbour View Hotel. . . starts 230-430. . . I attended wit Anthony. . . at the seminar, I made a few new frens. . . Charles, Justin and more. . . Made friends with Pastor Stephen George and Pastor Phua Hee. . . Pastor Stephen has heard of me before, I feel proud~~ lol. . . hehe. . . Then went to meet Ben Carlin Sim at TJ Popular. . . He bought a new camera, Canon, 10 Mp for RM399~ we took some picts with it~ Then walk around, then go PC Fair. . . Made a few more new frens there. . . Alison Law is one of em~ Got her num+email add~ Then Anthony have to go home. . . Then me n Ben with a combined amount of $$$ of RM11. . . Hav to plan for a gud dinner~ So I intro him to eat at a corner kopitiam where my mom used to buy a form of glutonous rice cake all the time when I was young~ So we ate there~ At there, we saw a gal eatin alone so I talked to her n asked her to join us at our table to hav dinner together~ She looked like local Chinese but she is actually Japanese~ Her name is Minako Nishiyama~ She is 20 and is travellin alone. . . She lodged at BB motel~ Then we took a pict together and then said our farewells~ Then we stumbled upon the VIPS eatin at the Medan Pelita there. . . It was the premier of Saloi~ The 1st Iban movie~ So we watched the band that performed. . . The gal singer had a good voice~ Then we hanged out at a book store, juz playin wit my netbook~ Then we sat somewhere else, met Bonnie and her new BF. . . He is ok lookin n ok guy. . . He bought her a Gucci purse for her lol~ I think he is ok~ So then me n Ben juz sang spontaneous~ Then he found a KFC voucher which can get us a free meal~ so we did. . . Then we wait for the ride by talkin n goin o9 to watch vids~ Then da car came at 1am~ then go home~ Then I o9 then blog then conclude~ Today. . . Is a good day~ also a joke told by the pastor~ You, coward, You, chicken, You, gutless. . . My ayam burger have more guts than you~ hehe~

Another one of these days. . .

2010-04-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

sigh. . . I hate times like these. . . But let me juz recap my day. . . Morn. . . Head to skul, BCOM class. . . Tag along in Song Su Ling's red MR-S, nice I guess. . . Ate at Fat Cat kopitiam, had claypot mee, mee again. . . The chef who prepared the mee for us was Roy Ng's mom. . . Me, Song Su Ling, Goh Jiew Chen, Roy Ng, Ju Ying and Chai Hua Fong ate together. . . It was good~ Then back to BO class. . . after class, otw home, saw black smoke comin out from a distance. . . lol. . . got home, on Facebook and saw da picts of the firerie ordeal. . . turns out that Yuri Reen's house was situated near the building dat was burning. . . lol. . . Then Ken suddenly called me, asked me to go to kareoke. .. lol. . . So I got ready and went. . . Anyways, Song Su Ling asked me did I like her. . . I was stupid enough to change the subject lol . . . Well . . Drama unfolded tonite. . . No one went home happy. . . Me, my fren A,B,C,D din go home happy. . . A wanted to suicide, we went to look for him. B screamed and cried in the car went to sent her home. . . It was due to depression. . . Stress. . . I knew something was wrong. . . C duno wad to do. . . But I gave her da solution and idea outside her house. . . D has responsibilities to cover. . . Heavy ones. . . tons of pressure on him. . . We 1st met up at spring. . . Then we went to Da-light King Center there to eat. . . Then my fren A disappeared. . . He then said that he is goin to commit suicide. . . damn. . . long story short, anyone who wants to noe why he wans to kill himself pls ask me personally. . . Then we went to find him with no success. . . Then we, fren B,C,D went to Rasa Sayang the music lounge/bar owned my fren B's dad. . . No room, then we went to Monster Tongue to have a few cold ones and play a few rounds of pool . . . Then we hav to send fren B home 1st. . . I had a feeling she wasn't ok. . . She suddenly asked, ''can I scream in tha car?'' Then I said go ahead. . . Then she started screamin then cried. . . It was like she was in tremendous pain. . . I duno wad happened but I feel sad, depressed, worried and sick after dat ordeal. . . Then send fren C home then fren D sent me home and thats abt it. . . sigh. . .

Wednesday. . .

2010-04-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

So. . . My tots on today. . . Well. . . Good I guess. . . EFL and Bmaths. . . woot. . . Wore coperate today. . . Full black with a black tie~ At the moment, I feel very erm. . . blank. . . So. . . I guess dats due to overdose of indulgance . . . Too much comfort makes one soft n slow lol. . . Gotta toughen up lol. . . Anyways, still lookin for dat sumone lol. . . 1 after another and none yet. . . Haiz. . . I guess tonite I'm juz gotta enjoy some movies~~~ Thx to Ben Carlin Sim for da movies~ I'm feeling good- Michael Buble. . . Random suggestion~

The college lobby newly painted & my mind yawns. . . Smells of . .. Paint. . .

2010-04-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

I'm sittin here in the college lobby, sittin across da table from Joanne Jong. . . I'm bloggin, my latest hobby, I'm also listenin, to my fav song. . . Anyways, I juz went thru Song Su Ling's Facebook profile n I saw a pict of her in a bikini. . . Damn nice~ Anywas, she is a new fren o mine. . . Met her in college, & have quite alot of things in common. . . She drove a Toyota MR-S to skul yesterday lol. . . anyways, change of topic. . . Da smell of paint is reali buggin my stomach. . . but yet I still sit here typing my whole blog out. . . smart huh? Feel like taking my guts out for a spin. . . Its amazing how the senses can change a persons way of feeling lol. . . I hear the smell of candy can turn a lady on. . . But I wonder. . . lol. . . Anyways, time for class. . . Its English for learnin and I'm now dressed to impress. . . Blog somemore later~

Yesterday, cuz now is today~~

2010-04-28T01:59:00.000+08:00

Well . . . Yesterday. . . I kinda overslept. . . the night before yesterday. . . I walked around with my close fren who I hav nt met since erm. . . around 4 mths ago I think. . . Anyways, we walked n talk for like, let me put it dis way, we started walkin out n talkin from 8pm till 2am in da mornin so. . . yea. . . Had a great time catchin up wit my buddy~ I reali miss my secondary skul days. . . But I also kinda like my current life so yea. . . Well . . . Yesterday, I woke up at 12pm . . reason obviously. . . Class starts 2pm, accounting class. . . Mdm Lina. . . so I got ready in a flash~ had my lunch yada yada~ reach skul at 1.15pm~ I never reali liked accounting. . . but now I kinda got da hang of it, the matter of fact, I'm actually quite good at it, lol. . . hmm, who wud hav known. . . Anyways, yestersay, Mdm Lina talked to me alot about GMC, something similar to GRC except they activate the ''Mid-brain'' rather the ''sub-conscience brain''. . . She asked me if I wud be interested to be an agent cuz she found out I attended da GRC b4. . . lol. . . So I agreed but let me do some research 1st. . . then yada yada, had a simple dinner wit Song Su Ling, Janice Teo, Roy Ng and Chai Hua Fong~ Then aft dinner is Fundamentals of Computing~~ in yesterdays lesson, we learn abt how to overclock a processor to 5Ghz wit da help of liquid Nitrogen~~~ yea~ so. . . Oh yea, its freakin important to hav a powerful fan for ur processor cuz if not, it wud hav a dramatic increase of temperature n a smokin melt down. . . from 30+ degrees to 200++ degrees in matter of seconds. . . Damn scary lol . . . Later aft class, went to makan(which means eat in malay) with my frens Joyce Ho, Janice Teo and Kenshi Chai. . . so after dat, got home. . . & started my blog~~ I'm proud to say I started my blog lookin for a quote frm da movie ''500 days of summer'' to impress a gal. . .I searched Ben Carlin Sim's profile but he doesnt have it so. . . sad lol. . . then I tot hey! Why not I blog also? So dats how I started. . . Now I'ma freakin go to sleep cuz I'm damn tired lol . . . will blog again 2molo~~~

Hello Blogspot~

2010-04-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

o.0, never tot I'd be bloggin lol. . . But since I have tots dat I wish to express, I tot why not blog online where I can share my curiously enigmatic perverted lil mind~~~~ lol, anyways, this is da start of my blog, those who have read dis may comment on it as much as they like~~~ more than 5 repeated comments I'll consider a spam n report on da lil bugger~ So have a nice day after you read ppl~